Dijarahnya sumur ideku dengan serakah,
lalu ia lempar rupiah,
tiap akhir bulan
katanya, "ini hasil jerih payah"
dan kuhilang sedikit demi sedikit,
di akhir bulan.
Lacurkan diri demi rupiah dan gengsi mama papa.
tentang mama papa, mucikariku
dipakaikannya aku jas dan dasi
diajarkan basa basi hingga manner ambil nasi
alus kesana kemari hingga bisa masuk korporasi
Lalu dipaksanya aku bersenggama
'tuk kekalkan garis lacur keluarga
Ini bukan yang aku kehendaki.
Tapi lagi, aku hanya lacur
yang tak boleh beropini.
Ma, Pa, ini jiwa tlah pergi
belikan aku peti mati,
dan kuburlah di Fiji,
bersama ambisi.
Umumkan pada semua,
hari ini ku bukan lagi lacur
'tuk siapa pun atau apa pun lagi.
Leave me be.
Voices getting louder,
breath getting heavier.
I'm gasping for air, all I wanted were to be left alone.
Grant my last wish, I'm begging.
When you fall asleep, I stay awake and cried alone at 3 a.m
when you woke up, I greet you with the most beautiful smile.
Secretly hoping you'll see right through me somehow.
But you didn't
you never did.
I lied so many times, but you never noticed,
"I'm doing really great, how's your day hun?"
I've spent the last years making you happy, and you made me happy too darling,
but I need to figure something on my own.
This time you can't tag along for the ride,
please leave me be for a while.